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Raven Palima

Coming Out Story

Hi, I just want to share my coming out story to you guys. I want to start when I was a kid, i knew then that im different because i had these feelings where i always had a crush on a girl, but back then i thought that it's just temporary. Until I had a really big crush on this girl that I started talking to her, because I want to get to know her more. She's a year older and I don't expect anything because I know that there's no chance. Then there was a time where my mom found out about it and she got angry at me, telling that I should transfer school even though I dont want it. I have no choice but to follow her. I was disappointed back then, because I heard her talking about me to our relatives. I'm really embarassed because she don't need to tell them these things. I had questions on my mind like "is she not proud of me?", "is she ashamed of me?", "if im really like this will she not accept me of who i am." I remember I was crying while these thoughts run through my mind. Then I decided to shrug it off and move on to my new school.

As years went by, there's this boy who courted me for 6 months and we only lasted for 3 weeks, which my parents didn't know i had. I was devastated back then because, I found out that he cheated on me, twice. One thing that I hated the most is cheating. I thought that he be different from my dad. I promised to myself that I will never be like my mom who became a martyr to my dad. I'll never settle for anything less because I know my worth. Then, I met this girl who made me realize who I really am. I'm bisexual. I've been confused for years and I never thought that I would love a girl like this. We both didn't come out yet to our parents, but there's this time that I got a chance to finally tell them who I am. It's really not easy because I know that its hard for them to accept it and its okay for me if they cant. I'm proud of who I am and I'm proud to have my girlfriend. I don't want to waste my life to become someone I'm not, I want to live my life and not let anyone define who I am. I think that's how I value my life, because we all know that we only live once and we should be free to do anything, but of course with limits. We all are adult who know what's right and what is wrong. As long as we don't trample other people then that's fine, be whoever you want to become. 

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