Years ago, this was what I always do and felt. Chasing something nonexisting made me toxic towards my self and to other people. I have even come to a point where i stoop down too low just to have a grasp of what home is. Not realizing that the home I am supposed to choose was me.Im glad that i have passed that stage of my life, and decided to make a home out of my self.
I never regretted taking a step forward, leaving the past and some people behind while carrying the lessons and most importantly forgiving my self for all the mistakes I have made. 
As of now, I know that I have grown and becoming the person I am meant to be, my progress might be little but I am still proud of it. And those people who stayed and patiently waited for me are the ones I am really thankful for. In this journey of self discovery, where sometimes it is scary as  I dont know what lies ahead of me, you gave me hope, a little bit of sunshine and love along it. Thank you.