It was only recent when I felt life’s pressures regarding my career and my love life. I guess this is one of the triggering factors of my depression. I was utterly confused and it felt like I was slowly becoming worthless.

1. Career
I have a bachelor’s degree in Psychology and I am a registered Psychometrician. I quit work to start a business along with my cousin, with the financial help of both of our parents. Words could never describe how difficult it was, but we were sure that we were learning along the way. It was when the pandemic struck that everything fell apart. We had to close our business to save us from further losses and also to keep us and our staff safe. In conclusion, I have been unemployed for almost 7 months already. Everyday felt like a struggle to wake up as I felt like I was wasting my time but to be honest, I still don’t have the motivation to do something about it.

2. Love Life
I’ve been praying for my “God’s best” ever since I was in elementary. I prayed for a love story beautifully written by God, a love story in His own time. The problem is, the world is full of temptations and deceit and so I had several failed relationships. When my heart has gotten tired and weary, I decided to take a rest and grow as an individual. But then in the middle of 2019, I had a chance to talk to an acquaintance again. It was an innocent friendship until romantic feelings came and grew. Everything was going well: we talk about God everyday, my family has approved of him, and he was all-in-all a very nice man. A day came when I asked myself, “Am I really ready for this?” I knew in my heart that I wasn’t.

"May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit."
- Romans 15:13

I am currently in a season of waiting. I know full well that this is the time when God will mold me into a better version of myself. While I’m waiting, God is working.

To my dear readers who feel that they’re lost in the maze of this world, take your time. Don’t rush yourself. You’ll get to your destination. But a gentle reminder: do not be complacent. Pray that God will guide you all the way.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
- Jeremiah 29:11